On the verge

When I arrived home today, I suddenly felt the weight crashing down. The pressure from all the school work, me being a horrible mayor, all the reprimanding, my friends being down, the projects, the shit PLUS my mom being in a pissy mood made the dam close to collapsing. I decided to hold the waterworks until the family left for dinner. I stayed home. I was in no mood for mingling and laughing. I just wanted to be left alone and sulk...and cry it all out.

But before all that, I decided to be obedient and feed my hunger. And well, after all the random nonsense with the helpers and listening to some music, I feel better. As much as I want to let it all out, the tears arent resurfacing anymore. Though I'm not totally fine and my emotions still feel like a roller coaster ride, I will get through this.